"Nutrition is the foundation of weight loss." -Chris Powell

This statement is very true! But, it is the part of weight loss that I have always struggled with.  I have been doing T25 for going on 5 weeks now and I love it! I have found that I actually look forward to doing the workouts!  That being said I still struggle not eating a slice of the banana bread my daughter and I made, the left over fries from my sons happy meal, xtra cheddar flavor blasted goldfish (so yummy!) and taking advantage of the food delivery service here in Kuwait. I am a work in progress. They say (who is they, lol?) that the first step is to acknowledge you have a problem. Well, hello my name is Blake and I have a problem....I love foods that aren't always that great for me!  I will say this, I do eat a wide variety of healthy foods but, as a friend of mine said to me once "for me to reach this goal I have no room for all these extra carbs!" Lol! After having my third baby getting back to the old me is hard and to be honest I wasn't where I wanted to be before the pregnancy weight wise. But, I am focused and I am ready! 

Back in Kuwait

We, meaning Richard, Cameron, Aydan, Elijah, and I, have made it back to Kuwait after a long vacation back home in Georgia.  It was nice because I was able to see my Grandmother for Hanukkah (the only Jewish holiday that I ever celebrate, lol) and stay for Christmas and the New Year.  Being around family makes me so happy!  I learned a lot about myself while gone like....I put on a couple of lbs. while in Kuwait, my controlling behavior never goes away, and I am always running myself into the ground.  OK, I will admit that I already knew all of these but, it sucks when someone points these things out. 

First, I knew that I gained weight being in Kuwait.  I hurt my back when I first arrived in Kuwait from the move here and ended up going to physical therapy for about a month straight.  Back pain can be so debilitating! I am normally addicted to working out but for about a year now I have been seriously slacking and believe me "I want that old thang back!!" So, from this point on I will be changing my routine to ensure that I will able to fit exercise back into my sched. 

Next, I am fully aware that I have control issues!  Why on earth do you think I would make such a drastic decision to bring my little bro, Cameron, to a foreign country with me?!  I have to know what I would do with him is being done.  If I am not in Georgia how can I do that.  So, the solution is to have him with me.  I don't think my mother is a bad mother, just that the current situation is to much for her to handle.  In Richards eyes I need to mind my own business more but, thats not how I roll!  I know my family values my opinion, just as I value theirs.  Not to mention that I want to control what he does too such as dressing him and feeding him, lol! 

Last, I am constantly running my-self in to the ground!!  As my friend Michelle says "Should everyone just fight over me?"  Well that would probably work better for me.  That way I wouldn't have to make the final decision on what I do.  Richard tells me I am always doing to much and he is right.  For example, when we got in to Washington airport from Georgia we ended up staying the night because the flight was too late to make the connection to Kuwait.  If it was up to me we would have explored Washington D.C. all of the next day (our flight wasn't until 9:50 the next night) seeing all of the amazing historical sights.  But, because Richard reminded me of how I do to much, we stayed at the hotel, went swimming, and relaxed until it was time to head to the airport.  You know what,  it was better that way!  We were not stressed or rushing.  I am not going to say I have learned my lesson, because I think that is what makes me the fun person I am, but It is nice to just let things happen as they will and not make a million plans fit into one day.

Well that's all for now peeps!

Damn....

I always say I am going to blog, but I never do.  It's really hard to get to this with all the other things I have going on in my life.  I have been feeling a little crappy, happy, random, annoyed, loving, and all other types of mixed up shenanigans lately.  Lets start off with a wish list!  1. I would like a house that has a play room so that every time children come to my house Aydan's room doesn't look like a disaster, 2. I would like a nanny, a personal assistant, a chef, and a maid (lol, all of course are things that are going to happen when hell freezes over), 3. well I will keep a couple things to myself.  A friend and I were talking today about how when you walk into your home the feeling of shear exhaustion takes over and you have no motivation to do much of anything.  What the hell is that?  I have this feeling way to often.  Could it be the fact that I am taking care of my two wonderful children, or the fact that after getting them ready and put down for bed I am doing school work, or the fact that I am working part-time, or the fact that I always seem to have some sort of social event that I am attending????  Being pulled in forty-five different directions is not that fun all the time.  BUT,  I LOVE MY LIFE!!  Not trying to convince you or me.......it's a fact!  I would not ever give up wearing all the hats that I wear.

My whole family shares the same towel......

Gross but true, lol!  Yes, Richard, Aydan, and myself.  (Elijah has his cute little baby towel for now but, I am sure he will join us one day.)  What??? We are all clean when we get out of the shower rrrright?  Richard hates this and always ends up getting a new one when he realizes it, but it always takes him a while.  I am not sure when this started but it has gone on for a while now.  Believe me we own enough towels!  Honestly, I think this comes from my complete hatred of washing clothes.  Since Rich has been gone I have had to do a lot of things I have never done before or things that I have not done in a while.  Things such as wash clothes, do more dish washing, make sure the car stays clean (in my own little way), clean my room and make my bed, vacuum ( I never knew where it was until now), clean the house, mow the lawn (and everything that entails), and many other things of that nature.  I guess you can kind of say that I am a little bit of a princess and up until Richard left for Kuwait I didn't realize how much of one I was.  I jokingly call him "Psycho Cleaner Man" because he is the cleanest man that I know.  I love it that he is the way he is because in a weird way he keeps me sane.  Yes, we are total opposites!  I am crazy, talkative, outgoing, messy, and he is more reserve, sits backs and observes what is going on around him, and extremely clean.  He would like the bed to be made up everyday to the point where I think it bothers him just thinking about the fact that I leave the house in the mornings with out touching it.  What for, I am getting right back in it when I get home?!  The one thing I will say is that having to do all of these things now has definitely made me a stronger person and has made me really appreciate him.  I don't think some people understand our relationship especially considering we could have an argument everyday over the same topic, hangers!  LOL!  and if not hangers then something else really dumb but, one thing I know is that I love that man!